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I guess I haven't written on this in a few months. To me it's pretty obvious why but likely not to you. Here's the low-down...


-Took a trip to Seattle to visit James and tour Microsoft
-Bought a house
-Had some pretty major issues at work I had to contend with


That's pretty much the summary of my last few months in a nutshell. Buying a house has been very stressful, yet a very exciting step in my life. On the note of stress, work has been overwhelming. I still love my job, but the last two months have been absolutely draining. I'm starting to get burnt out and of course it doesn't help to read in the ChE magazine that I'm grossly underpaid compared to my peers in both the environmental engineering realm as well as compared to those I graduated with. Yeah, needless to say it's been a tough year financially, I suppose that just comes with getting older.

I have to admit that sadly I just haven't had much for ideas on what to write in here. I'm kind of lacking all forms of inspiration right now. My sex life is non-existent, mainly because it seems like there isn't anyone in this city worth giving half a shit about (save my best friend of course). Frankly I'm getting board with Austin again. I seem to go through these phases where I really just want to pack up, move out, and start over....now is one of those times.

I don't regret buying a house here and officially settling, I still love my job, but I just wish the entirety of the gay population of Austin would turn-over and refresh itself. I feel like I'm in the bottom capitol of the world and what little tops there are to go around are either worthless losers, or too interested in what's young and dumb.

I had a long conversation last night with a straight friend of mine about the difficulties of dating in the gay community here in austin, especially for someone at my age who is heads above everyone from a maturity stand point. Thankfully I'm starting to find older guys attractive, but it's been a challenge to meet people I'm even remotely interested in.

All of this stress, financial struggles, and relationship struggles have left me even more bitter than I used to be. I'm really trying to fight it but it's very challenging. I find myself wanting to just sit at home by myself all the time. I still greatly enjoy the company of my friends, but for some reason I just lack the motivation to organize anything or get people together. perhaps it's the long gruesome hours at work the past 3-weeks, I don't know. Thank god I have Nathan around to keep me socializing or I'd probably become a vegetable.

I suppose on a happier note I had a pretty good day at work today. A project that I was working on and was scared to ask for the funding for given recent events at work was actually approved sometime last week while one of the design engineers was working on it and pushing it through while I was occupied. It will be a nice feather in my cap for the year (another $100,000 in annual savings to add to my tally, I think that brings it to just over $750,000 in annual savings I've earned for the company). On top of that I was given a pretty resounding kudos from upper management today on how I handled the recent events that have plagued my work responsibilities for the past three weeks.

I've got it on my schedule to take Mondays and Fridays off for the rest of August, which should provide for an easy going month. 4-day weekends are always enjoyable. I'm afraid I have absolutely no funds to do any of the work that I've wanted to do around the house so it's likely that I'll just have lots of a lone time. I'll probably go to Barnes and Noble and find a book to read. Work on my yoga and probably meditate a bit. hopefully I can pull myself out of the funk pretty quickly. Here's hoping all this time off will give me a fresh outlook on things.

Namaste